Dals' Landing

Paladins: CureDalia
Valorant: CureDalia#D4DJ
EternalReturn: PriyaPanday
D4DJ: hmDqj1mW
BanG Dream: 16488573
Marvel Rivals: Luna's Wife
Punishing Gray Raven: 167691036
Reverse 1999: 400888536
Overwatch: LunaSnow

Smite: CureDalia
League of Legends: CureDalia#D4DJ
Genshin Impact: 652028044
Honkai Star Rail: 614131495
Honkai Impact 3rd: 108318791
Zenless Zone Zero: 1001025728
Wuthering Waves: 501508317
Arknights: 53357236
Idoly Pride: E2KNXFFX

My birth gender is male, and I don't necessarily reject that in the real world. But at the same time, I struggle to fully accept it. I do feel that something is missing, and in spaces where I am free to do so I vastly prefer being recognized using she/her pronouns and being seen as female. My feelings on gender are more complicated and personal than I'm going to get into here. Though when it comes to others in the real world, I can largely be considered aroace (aromantic and asexual) with few exceptions. I suggest reviewing the page on my parasociality for additional information about some of this.I find a lot of peace in people about to use the potential of the internet to form my identity much more freely. When I'm online, I can exist outside of the confines of physical appearance — only being bound by my voice. But it allows for me to explore this side of me a lot more, which inevitably is my preferred identity. I do prefer she/her pronouns and to be seen as such.

I don't feel traditional attraction towards real-world people, and don't find the same value in real world relationships as most do. For me, relationships in reality are still valuable — they are a form of life companionship that you know will be a constant in your life. But I do not view those as being any different from close friendships and connections with others around me in a less intimate capacity.This is not to say that I haven't had my share of relationships and spoken with people in this way. But rather when I'm engaged in those things, I oftentimes find myself overcompensating for a certain lack of investment compared to what I may feel for some fictional characters.I don't fear "betrayal" from real world relationships, and am not concerned about 'heartbreak' or anything. In practice, I just find myself greatly valuing fictional characters as an outlet for any romantic or intimate feelings I may have. I don't find it to be 'settling' for fictional characters; instead it's my active preference. I find that I feel happiest whenever I'm able to still have life-long companions in the real world (most commonly in the form of very close friends) but am also able to maintain my connection with these characters.To that end, what's important to me is that those close friends that I seek this companionship with are able to be accomodating for me. There's a lot of value in being able to have this sort of philosophy I work under be respected (or at least tolerated). In the most simple way possible... what I seek is for the people I'm close to and connected with to treat these characters the way they would any real-world relationship or couple. To not say things they wouldn't say about a friend's real partner, to not do things they wouldn't do surrounding a friend's partner, etc. In my life they fulfill that role. Although I may have many more than one or two characters that I refer to as my wives (my preference being women), I want to be able to feel secure in that above all else. What I want is to be able to feel like they're respected by those close to me in a similar way to what one could find in real world relationships.Seeking out/doing innapropriate content/thing surrounding them, fawning over them (as opposed to just appreciation of characters), etc. would all be wildly uncomfortable to me for a friend to be doing, especially given how important this aspect of my life is to me. It's something that I place a lot of trust in my close friends to avoid and to afford me the peace of mind of knowing won't happen. It would be as if someone was being intimate in their own time with their friend's wife or husband in mind, and is highly innapropriate. Towards that end, things like comments about their bodies, possessiveness, or sexual advances of any kind are also extremely uncomfy. The understanding that these characters can be treated as my actual partners; since that's what they are for me. If this accomodation isn't something that someone is willing to offer me, although understandable, I don't see a spot for that person in my life as one of those close companions.