Parasociality

I have a girlfriend (wlw), but the closest thing I can use to describe myself is being aroace and not having much interest in people. Or demi maybe? Idk, labels are weird. Platonic partnerships are chill though, as well as romantic dating in the right situations (which is what I'm in now with a very special girl!). Though there's a certain type of fixation that can form in people that feel the way I do when it comes to relationships in that specific fictional characters can take on more 'real' romantic feelings and roles in one's life given the lack of real people serving as an outlet for that. Not the same as like simping over a character or fawning over them or just identifying with them, but having them fulfill a similar role in life and outlet for romantic feelings that a traditional partner would. Since it's not something that's found as much with real people. Which effectively means that there are a few very specific fictional characters that, in the simplest terms possible, are the same to me as if they were a real-world partner/girlfriend. Which is something that my actual real-world girlfriend and close friends recognize and respect, because it's important to me to not have comments made about the characters that wouldn't be made about a friend's traditional partner. Since they're the same for me.Qiao Ling, for example, is one such character and is one of the strongest examples for me. Which is to say that just as I have my actual girlfriend, Qiao is a character that I fixate on and recognize, in a much more literal sense, as an equal to her that I feel the same type of romantic attraction and protectiveness over. Not a character appreciation kind of love, but a literal one where she fills the same spot as what a romantic partner would in someone's life. I recognize how abnormal this is and how strange it may be to say, but in my world and perspective, Qiao is my partner (in addition to my actual tangible IRL girlfriend). So comments and outside possessiveness and so on beyond just character appreciation makes me uncomfortable as it would a traditional partner/girlfriend when something like that is said. She is a part of a very niche group of a few characters from various series that I feel especially strongly about in this way.


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